not much, but it is an update

Lately I've been doing most of my writing in my private journal. The real one made of actual paper that I keep under my bed. A lot has been going on in my life, lots of family stuff that I've touched on somewhat here and other stuff too. I've been deep in thought, doing a lot of contemplating and just haven't felt like sharing it here. Partly because so many people, family and friends alike, in my offline life read here and I am feeling more private these days; partly just because I want to try to be positive here but I haven't exactly been feeling like a ray of sunshine and I am not good at putting on or pretending. Or I am pretty good at it, but just don't have it in me to bullshit anymore so I don't is more like. I tried to post yesterday but the things that were on my mind were bound to earn me emails from up to two males certain it was all about him wanting to bite my head off... and that whole scenario playing out in my head gave me a pretty bad case of writer's block. hahaha

Here's the Random Six that played yesterday while I sat here writing and erasing the same line 45678923 times:

Cory Hart - Sunglasses at Night
Kate Bush - Never Be Mine
Roxy Music - The Main Thing
Lords of the New Church - Holy War
Quarterflash - Take Me to Heart
INXS - Burn for You

All from the '80s and I didn't even have it programmed that way. Kind of weird huh. You know my first post on this blog was kind of about '80s music as I recall. It's labeled "first post" or something similar if you're interested in checking it out. I'll find the label and list it below.

I hope you had a good day, are having a good night, and have a great week!

Much love to you! xox

P.S. Grandma is doing very well. Nieces and nephew are great, Candace is doing OK, is staying with me for a bit, along with several other family members actually. My mother is driving me crazy, but what else are mothers for. Work and school are going fine. My love life is still non-existent. It doesn't help that I publicly embarrass myself one way or another daily. In typical emotional eater fashion, I ate an entire pint of Ben & Jerry's pistachio then spent the next two hours working it off. Was it worth it? Hell yes.