Monday, December 14, 2009

Has it really been a month and a half?

Oh my, I can hardly believe how long it has been since I have written anything here. Time flies when you are having fun (or running around like a chicken with its head cut off! ha)

Life is trucking along. Family, work, and school have been consuming all of my time. We're finally going to visit the tree farm and put up Christmas decorations tomorrow afternoon. I have my last final exam this week (yay!), just in time for my son and I to do our annual Christmas baking. Rum cake, lemon-apricot cake, an assortment of Italian cookies and candies (truffles, yum!)... I am so excited!!! I'm putting the finishing touches on Kyle's new stocking. I quilted it. It's a surprise. Your child is never too old for an Easter basket or a new Christmas stocking.

My son turned 22 years old December 4th. I am still having a hard time believing it. He's supposed to be a little boy, not this 6'1 1/2", 190 pound, bearded man that I see. lol Seriously though, I am so proud of him. He is such a sweetheart! All he wanted was to go see the Trans-siberian Orchestra in concert. With me, his mother. Awww!!! Which we did on December 2nd in Raleigh. It was fantastic!!! They really put on an awesome show. Members of the North Carolina Symphony sat in and omg they were just incredible. We had the best time.

In other news, I did something I swore a blood oath (well, a tear-filled one more like) more than a year ago that I would not ever do again. Yes, stupid me tried her luck with an online matchmaking service once again. I've been too busy to date really, but like anything else we tend to put off until "the right time", the stars and planets will never be aligned perfectly for it and honestly I am sick of being alone so I just decided to do it anyway. Apparently I learned nothing from this experience or that one (the first). I thought I did, learn something that is, and thought I had a realistic picture of what I was about to face and had developed a thicker skin. Hey, did you know that if you grab a hot cast-iron skillet by the handle it burns you? Yeah, me too. And yet I have done it more times than I can count, both literally and figuratively. I'm very familiar with the ubiquitous 'definition of insanity is...' adage, but I think my problem is more along the lines of absent-mindedness. I just forgot it was hot.

Well, I'm not going to give up just yet. I've accepted all of the negative aspects and inevitable bullshit that comes with the whole thing and am hoping that it will all be worth it in the end. If not, at least I gave it my best effort. It's just that I know a kindred is out there, several I believe, and one day I will find one who will feel it too and in spite whatever fears or reservations he may have, he'll just say yes! And we'll spend the rest of our lives being ourselves and embracing and loving every single flaw and quirk the other possesses. I'm such a hopeless romantic.

Wow, it's 1:45 in the morning and I have to be up early. I promise not to let so much time pass between updates next time.

Here is the random six: (someone keeps reporting this post, even though the links to the songs were not active, so I had to remove the names of the songs. un-friggin-believable!)

14 comments:

  1. heyy buddyy lissaaaa..gr8 2 hear fm u..like i always say u may be out of sight but never out of mind..for sure...in fact i kept dropping in to check yr blog on and off..good to hear u r fine..dont allow the negative aspects to bother u..u r such a good person..just keep smiling..life is a pain anyway..the tact is to convert pain into gain..vallah..what gr8 philosopher yr friend ramesh is..hehehe..lisa.take care..if poss post yr son's photo ya...let;s also look at him...cya

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  2. you my dear, allways the right word, the central point of the things.
    Pure enjoy reading you....
    kissies...and thnks!
    NAMASTE HARI OM!/\

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  3. I'm a hopeless romantic, too. Well, more "hopeless" than "romantic", but I'm trying...

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  4. Well...yes, no, maybe...

    This could possibly be a real man-pig thing to say, but I kind of wish that there were a dozen women like you and Carla(K?) hanging out in my cave. Please don't shoot me.

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  5. Hi Ramesh. Thank you for stopping by, dear friend of mine. Are you all packed for your trip? Convert pain into gain... good advice. :) xox

    Carina, thank you so much for always bringing smiles. A big Namaste Hari Om and hugs and kisses.

    Jack, see I don't view you as hopeless at all. You're silly. lol

    Ed, haha you're so funny. And yes, it's Carla with a "C". :)

    Thank you so much for your visit and your comments everyone. I love you!!!

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  6. But, But, But...I'm soooo serious, also.

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  7. I love that Patti Smith song - she rocks! I hope your forays into online dating go a little more smoothly this time. I have a friend in your position and it can be a hard uphill slog with those things. I do think though that following your bliss will lead to deeper connections and possible mates and so I'd suggest doing both (if you aren't already). I remember how tough it is out there and wish you only luck. Merry Christmas!

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  8. I met my husband on an online service. That's also usually where I meet my lovers (open relationship, not cheating). If you're a decent judge of character, you can quickly weed out the wankers. If not, then it doesn't matter where you meet folks. The dating world can suck, but it can also be wonderful and magical and a real joy getting to know someone new!

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  9. lisaaa...gr8 to hear fm u...also happy to hear that u ll be back in action in blogworld...v all love u..so better stay alive in blgosphere..hugs..and namaste

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  10. On one side, I felt so glad that your son does what boys don't do now-a-days; take mom along :) On the other side, I had a very very bad feeling about the other thing. You're a good person, and I can't believe GOD can be so bad with you. But as you mentioned, everything will bring out good finally. So you need not worry at all, and say "All is Well". Beliefs make truths.

    Stay here in the blogging world, with all friends us here. I wish the "very bestest" for you, and GOD does fulfill my wishes :)

    Burj Khalifa [Burj Dubai, برج خليفة‎, Khalifa Tower]

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  11. lisaaa.buck up buddy..blogosphere beckons..cheers..sure u doing well, my very dear friend...:)

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  12. Common… as I always say, dullness adds to the dullness; cheerfulness adds to the cheerfulness. It's you who can create your mood.

    Rajasthani Turbans

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  13. lisa..dropped in again to say hi to u..:)

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