I am finally feeling somewhat normal again

I am settled in my new home and job, have established a routine, and have planted a gorgeous garden in my new backyard.

Ohio is lovely. It is WONDERFUL to live so close to my sister Pamela and my nephew! I love my job. Another bonus: I'm in a new plant-hardiness zone so I can finally grow raspberries and other fruits and vegetables that I couldn't before. I'm going to build a checkerboard herb garden this weekend! I love my new yard.

This funniest thing: a bird built a nest inside the bird feeder I hung.

She hasn't laid eggs yet, but guards the nest nonetheless. Birds come by for a bite of what is supposed to be community grub and she runs them off, then shakes her feathers as if to say "the nerve of them!" She, of course, is the one with "the nerve", but I don't mind. She wakes me up in the morning when my alarm clock fails and doesn't bother Zeke when he's laying in the grass soaking up the sun.

So much is going on in my life that I don't have time to write about right this moment, but all is well. I'm still emotional and say the wrong things and run off people that I care about -- I am working hard on that. I miss one person intensely though. He'll never talk to me again. I've written an apology but he was either too hurt or too convinced I'm bat-shit crazy to write back. His birthday is coming up next month and I want to send him a card, but I love him and don't want to make him feel uncomfortable so I'll just light a secret candle, I suppose. As you can tell, I'm still struggling with detachment. Maybe it's okay that I'm not ready to let certain things go, though. There are lessons for me to learn here.

Overall though, I am happy. Life is good, friends. I hope life is good for all of you, too. Namaste